1/2 cup multigrain oats (NOT steelcut)
2 cups whole wheat pastry flour
2 cups 10 grain cereal mix from Winco (or any multigrain hot cereal mix with 100% whole grains)
1/4 cup sugar
2 1/2 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt
1 tsp baking soda
8 tbsp powdered buttermilk*
2 cups water (or liquid buttermilk, exclude powdered if using liquid)*
1/2 cup soy milk or your favorite cow's milk
2 whole eggs*
2 egg whites*
2 tbsp vegetable oil
1 tsp vanilla
2-4 ripe bananas
1 cup roughly chopped walnuts
or
2 11oz boxes of blueberries
(I made half the batch with blueberries, half with banana and nuts)
Mix dry ingredients, set aside. Whip together wet ingredients until eggs are beaten. Mix the wet and dry together. Fold in fruit. Cook on a 385 degree electric griddle for blueberry, or 340 degrees for banana.
*If you want to make this recipe vegan, substitute the water and powdered buttermilk with two cups of SOY milk (need soy!) and 2 tbsp of lemon juice or white vinegar. Add this with the wet ingredients. Substitute the eggs with an egg replacer (easily found at all health food stores or online), following instructions on the box for proper proportions. Also add this with the wet ingredients. :)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Performing systems check...
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Multiple system errors. All functions halted.
Unable to load sys32 files c:\kita\moods\happy; c:\kita\motivation; c:\kita\art; c:\kita\movement.
Unable to initialize kernel.
Out of memory.
Drive is full.
Abort, retry, fail?_f
C:\>defrag c:
Not enough disk space to defragment. Please clear space on drive before continuing.
C:\>del C:\kita\moods\happy\chipper
C:\>defrag c:
Not enough disk space to defragment. Please clear space on drive before continuing.
C:\>del c:\kita\moods\happy\outgoing
C:\>defrag c:
Not enough disk space to defragment. Please clear space on drive before continuing.
C:\>del c:\kita\moods\happy
Deleting this file will cause system instability. Continue?_n
C:\>defrag c: -f
defragmenting...
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Defragment complete. Drive is 95% fragmented. 98% full.
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>_del c:\kita\food\junk\fat
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>_del c:\kita\food\junk\sugar
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>_del c:\kita\food\junk
please wait...
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Out of memory. Abort, retry, fail?_f
C:\>del c:\kita\food\meat
C:\>defrag c: -f
defragmenting...
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Defragment complete. Drive is 53% fragmented. 93% full.
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>del c:\kita\archives
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Out of memory. Abort, retry, fail?_i
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Multiple system errors. Abort, retry, fail?_f
C:\>del c:\kita\food
Deleting this file will cause system instability. Continue?_y
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Multiple system errors. All functions halted.
Unable to load sys32 files c:\kita\moods\happy; c:\kita\motivation; c:\kita\art; c:\kita\movement.
Unable to initialize kernel.
Out of memory.
Drive is full.
Abort, retry, fail?_f
C:\>defrag c:
Not enough disk space to defragment. Please clear space on drive before continuing.
C:\>del C:\kita\moods\happy\chipper
C:\>defrag c:
Not enough disk space to defragment. Please clear space on drive before continuing.
C:\>del c:\kita\moods\happy\outgoing
C:\>defrag c:
Not enough disk space to defragment. Please clear space on drive before continuing.
C:\>del c:\kita\moods\happy
Deleting this file will cause system instability. Continue?_n
C:\>defrag c: -f
defragmenting...
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Defragment complete. Drive is 95% fragmented. 98% full.
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>_del c:\kita\food\junk\fat
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>_del c:\kita\food\junk\sugar
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>_del c:\kita\food\junk
please wait...
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Out of memory. Abort, retry, fail?_f
C:\>del c:\kita\food\meat
C:\>defrag c: -f
defragmenting...
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Defragment complete. Drive is 53% fragmented. 93% full.
C:\>convert c: /fs:ntfs
The type of file system is FAT32.
Enter current volume label for drive C: JEN
please wait..._
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Convert cannot run because the volume does not have enough free space. Clear space on drive to continue.
C:\>del c:\kita\archives
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Out of memory. Abort, retry, fail?_i
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Multiple system errors. Abort, retry, fail?_f
C:\>del c:\kita\food
Deleting this file will cause system instability. Continue?_y
...working
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Sunday, April 3, 2011
motivation
Saying I have been lacking motivation lately isn't quite right. When I am at work, or even just driving to work, my mind is exploding. I am brimming with ideas, and would rather be working on any of them than to be where I am at the moment. I want to be in that world more than the one I know I will have to wake up to and deal with tommorrow. I vow to work on it when I get home or have a day off. And I never, ever do...
I have this little notebook I keep with me. It carries the hope of 'one day'. So many days, it is how I keep myself going. Proof to myself I have awesome ideas. And a source of disappointment that all I have done with them is scribble some crappy notes.
Home is my soma. I am happy and VERY comfortable there. I just want to relax and enjoy doing nothing. The next time I am work, I am kicking myself for wasting my time. It has been and endless pattern for a year, and I can't seem to break it.
I am so exhausted, all the time, with everything. I always seem to be cranky or moody or angry, and almost always all these things simultaniously with myself.
*sigh* I know I should talk to a therapist. It is very difficult for me to find a good one, and my current healthcare provider inspires zero confidence in me in terms of them finding the right one for me. I have been treated like livestock so far, and have seen zero indication of anyone ever being treated otherwise. The doctors and nurses didn't even have a single recommendation. This is a first. I have found all the good ones that way.
It feels too daunting to even try. They are supposed to help ease things, not make things more difficult.
Gawd I sound whiney. Another side effect, I suppose.
It's lunch time at work, and I am hungry. Can't bring myself to stuff a single bite in my fat face. I just want it to all go away... this eating disorder, this depression, this horrible job that doesn't even pay all the bills.
I am caught in a feedback loop, where each element is causing the other one, causing an infinate cycle of crap.
I want it to stop so I can live life instead of mourn it. This isn't me.
I have this little notebook I keep with me. It carries the hope of 'one day'. So many days, it is how I keep myself going. Proof to myself I have awesome ideas. And a source of disappointment that all I have done with them is scribble some crappy notes.
Home is my soma. I am happy and VERY comfortable there. I just want to relax and enjoy doing nothing. The next time I am work, I am kicking myself for wasting my time. It has been and endless pattern for a year, and I can't seem to break it.
I am so exhausted, all the time, with everything. I always seem to be cranky or moody or angry, and almost always all these things simultaniously with myself.
*sigh* I know I should talk to a therapist. It is very difficult for me to find a good one, and my current healthcare provider inspires zero confidence in me in terms of them finding the right one for me. I have been treated like livestock so far, and have seen zero indication of anyone ever being treated otherwise. The doctors and nurses didn't even have a single recommendation. This is a first. I have found all the good ones that way.
It feels too daunting to even try. They are supposed to help ease things, not make things more difficult.
Gawd I sound whiney. Another side effect, I suppose.
It's lunch time at work, and I am hungry. Can't bring myself to stuff a single bite in my fat face. I just want it to all go away... this eating disorder, this depression, this horrible job that doesn't even pay all the bills.
I am caught in a feedback loop, where each element is causing the other one, causing an infinate cycle of crap.
I want it to stop so I can live life instead of mourn it. This isn't me.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
M Monster's savory vegan tofu pot pie
Olive oil for sauteeing (about 2 tbsp)
1 large onion, diced
1 teaspoon black pepper
1 cup cubed carrots
3 cups cubed potatoes
1 cup thinly sliced celery
1 tbsp Trader Joe's 21 seasoning salute
1 tsp black pepper
1 teaspoon thyme
2 tsp Emeril Essence (sub 1/2 tsp seasoned salt and 1 tsp paprika if you can't handle a little heat!)
4 cloves fresh garlic, minced
1lb firm tofu, diced
1 cup fresh or frozen corn kernels
1 cup fresh or frozen green peas
4 tablespoon unbleached flour
1 tablespoon arrowroot powder (or sub reg flour)
1 tsp yellow or green curry paste
2 tsp vegetable Better than Bullion, or 2 vegetable bullion cubes
1 12 oz bottle of beer, something better than shwag! (I used Blue Moon)
1 tablespoon tamari or soy sauce
1 1/2 cups soy milk
1 tbsp apple cider vinegar
1/2 tsp black pepper
2 sheets pre rolled puff pastry frozen
Sautee onions for about 2 minutes in a large skillet over medium-high heat.
Add carrots and cook for an additional 3 minutes, turning occasionally to brown sides.
Add potatoes and cook 3 more minutes.
Reduce heat to medium and add celery, 21 seasoning, 1 tsp black pepper, thyme, and Emeril Essence. Give it a good stir!
Add peas, corn, tofu, and garlic and allow to cook while you make the sauce.
In separate bowl, whisk together flour, arrowroot, bullion, soy milk, vinegar, tamari, beer, and pepper. Mix sauce in with veggies.
Cook down until sauce thickens, about 5 minutes. If sauce isn't thick enough, add some cornstarch. You want it at the consistency of a brown gravy.
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Roll out pastry so it is about 2 inches wider and longer than the pan you will use. You can use ceramic corning ware to make individual pies too! I used two loaf pans and a pie pan.
Spray pans generously with nonstick spray, then line the bottom of pan(s) with pastry. Be sure the crust is around 1/4 inch thick on the bottom and all sides, so the good stuff doesn't leak out! Poke holes in bottom crust with fork and spray the top with nonstick spray. Bake bottom crust for 10 minutes.
Remove from oven and cover with veggie mix. Lay the other sheet over top and tuck edges. This layer should be a bit thinner than the bottom one. A bit less than a 1/4 inch is a good size. Poke holes in crust and spray the top with nonstick spray. Bake for 30 min or until brown.
Unless you are feeding an army, there WILL be leftovers! Plenty to divvy up into individual containers and freeze for homemade frozen dinners! :)
1 large onion, diced
1 teaspoon black pepper
1 cup cubed carrots
3 cups cubed potatoes
1 cup thinly sliced celery
1 tbsp Trader Joe's 21 seasoning salute
1 tsp black pepper
1 teaspoon thyme
2 tsp Emeril Essence (sub 1/2 tsp seasoned salt and 1 tsp paprika if you can't handle a little heat!)
4 cloves fresh garlic, minced
1lb firm tofu, diced
1 cup fresh or frozen corn kernels
1 cup fresh or frozen green peas
4 tablespoon unbleached flour
1 tablespoon arrowroot powder (or sub reg flour)
1 tsp yellow or green curry paste
2 tsp vegetable Better than Bullion, or 2 vegetable bullion cubes
1 12 oz bottle of beer, something better than shwag! (I used Blue Moon)
1 tablespoon tamari or soy sauce
1 1/2 cups soy milk
1 tbsp apple cider vinegar
1/2 tsp black pepper
2 sheets pre rolled puff pastry frozen
Sautee onions for about 2 minutes in a large skillet over medium-high heat.
Add carrots and cook for an additional 3 minutes, turning occasionally to brown sides.
Add potatoes and cook 3 more minutes.
Reduce heat to medium and add celery, 21 seasoning, 1 tsp black pepper, thyme, and Emeril Essence. Give it a good stir!
Add peas, corn, tofu, and garlic and allow to cook while you make the sauce.
In separate bowl, whisk together flour, arrowroot, bullion, soy milk, vinegar, tamari, beer, and pepper. Mix sauce in with veggies.
Cook down until sauce thickens, about 5 minutes. If sauce isn't thick enough, add some cornstarch. You want it at the consistency of a brown gravy.
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Roll out pastry so it is about 2 inches wider and longer than the pan you will use. You can use ceramic corning ware to make individual pies too! I used two loaf pans and a pie pan.
Spray pans generously with nonstick spray, then line the bottom of pan(s) with pastry. Be sure the crust is around 1/4 inch thick on the bottom and all sides, so the good stuff doesn't leak out! Poke holes in bottom crust with fork and spray the top with nonstick spray. Bake bottom crust for 10 minutes.
Remove from oven and cover with veggie mix. Lay the other sheet over top and tuck edges. This layer should be a bit thinner than the bottom one. A bit less than a 1/4 inch is a good size. Poke holes in crust and spray the top with nonstick spray. Bake for 30 min or until brown.
Unless you are feeding an army, there WILL be leftovers! Plenty to divvy up into individual containers and freeze for homemade frozen dinners! :)
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
LG's Super Duper Zucchini Bread!
(large recipe, cut in half if you dont want extra to freeze!)
6 eggs
1 1/2 cups brown sugar
1/2 cup molasses
1 cup oil
1 1/2 tsp vanilla
5 cups whole wheat pastry flour
5 tsp baking powder
2 tsp allspice
2 tsp cinnamon
2 tsp cloves
2 tsp salt
2 cups zucchini, unpeeled, grated
2 cups carrot, grated
1 1/2 cup raisins (I recommend golden or a medley)
1 cup multigrain oats
2 1/2 cups chopped walnuts
Beat the first 5 ingredients together. Sift together the flour, baking powder, and spices. Combine the wet and dry ingredients, taking care not to overmix. Fold in the veggies, nuts, oats, and raisins. Pour into 3 loaf pans (9"x5"). Bake at 350 degrees Fahrenheit for about 1 hour, or until a toothpick inserted in the middle comes out clean.
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